Why won't calgon take me away?

Yesterday was one of the worst days I have ever had. I came home from work rather early because there wasn't any patients for me to x-ray. I got home about 6:45am and I crawled into bed with my husband and son. John started to get up to go to work and I just curled up with Damon and went to sleep. It wasn't a sound restful sleep. It was very uncomfortable and shaky. When Damon finally woke up about 10am I knew something was wrong with me. When I left work I tested my sugar and it was a little over 400. High....but kinda normal for me. As I tried my hardest to focus my eyes and fight my awful headache...I couldn't stop shaking.

Damon and I made it downstairs and as he is asking me for eggs and toast I am searching for my glucose meter. I find it and take my sugar. The reading at that time was 94. A normal number for many people, but for me with sugar that is so high. That number is too low. I call my doctor and leave a message for her to call me and I briefly tell her about my numbers. I don't know if I should eat and I don't' want to take my insulin. I am so new to this disease that I am still unsure of myself at times. Anyhow I figure a small snack won't hurt. So I eat two graham crackers and a small glass of milk. About 25 minutes later my nurse calls and wants to know my sugar after my snack. So I take it and it is 228 but I am feeling just as bad as before if not more. She says she is going to talk to my dr and call me right back.

Fast forward to about 45 minutes down the road...I am laying upstairs in my bed while my son is playing on my bed with his trains. It is so hard to describe the way I am feeling but it is bad and I have never felt like this before. My nurse calls me again and wants to know what my sugar reading is now. I take it and it is 388! My dr. wants to see me right away and do some urine tests. To tell you the truth I was scared to drive myself and there wasn't anyone to take me. I get damon dressed and I litterally roll out of bed and we leave.

My urine is clean for protein and my sugar came down to 323. My dr adjusts my insulin. I now take 30 units of lantus at breakfast and at dinner and my novolog has been increased at every meal. Then Dr. N tells me that my GAD antibody test came back and it is positive. That means that I am a type 1 diabetic and not a type 2. Dr. N then tells me that she called the endocrinologist (that I have an appointment with in 3 weeks) and says that I need to get into her now cause I am feeling worse and worse with each passing days and my sugars are still not under control.

To make a long story short...I see Dr. K tomorrow. I am glad but nervous at the same time. I CAN NOT KEEP FEELING LIKE THIS!!! I have a headache that is so bad...I am in so much pain....and this pain does not seem to end.

I am so sick to my stomach, my vision is not working correctly, I am terribly fatigues, and everything just aches. To make matters worse my period started yesterday. Bloody terrific! I wonder what kind of news tomorrow will bring....